Why am I starting all over to blog again?

Why do I want to write again? I mean, what is it that provoked me after ages to jot down my feelings in the most sorted way as I can? Believe me, it just struck me a few minutes ago while heading back from work that I should write, not because it's my daily habit but I felt that it can ease my mind off  things! "Ease your mind of what?" you can wonder and since the answer is inexplicable without writing, I will try to make it as self-explanatory as possible. Saying that, it would be apt to add that whatever I jot down here I direct to myself and although if somebody cares to spare a few lazy moments over things they are always welcome.
First things first. I am your regular IT guy who visits the concrete jungle five days a week to feed his mouth. Like 99% of us, the thought of my inability to be a part of a better, more productive, idealistic profession/job travels through my mind whenever it's unoccupied with the 'critical project deliverables'. This is how it goes day by day as the utopian dream refuses to fade away. As a result, the mind often revolts against the montony of 'getting things done' without any authentic wisdom. But the roots of revolution are soon shaken by the pangs of conscience that wherever and whatever I am it was because of the choices I made.There is no blame game here.
Self-retrospection is a fatally risky thing for the mind. Nobody wants to open his can of worms and I am not an exception.But again, the realization I already have, that there is no one to point to because of the things against which my mind revolts, obviously makes me uneasy and I need to vent it out somewhere to retain my pacific state of mind.
I am aware that there are two dimensions of me : one which exists physically and perceives the world as anyone of us will and the other which reflects my sub-conscious or a more subtle state of mind when I start writing. When I write, I get more time to collect my thoughts and convey the meaning and since I write to me I am completely at sync with myself without any misunderstanding.That makes me feel at ease because I am able to empty my bucket of thoughts which I feel is extremely essential for me to recharge and rejuvenate myself completely.
This is the sole intention of putting in so many sentences today and  going forward, whenever I get the alert that my thought container is spilling  and needs to be poured out a bit, I will let loose the flow of words (rather thoughts).